insufferable love

There is something in the air and in my heart and mind that perplexes and challenges my senses. We can only hope for a change or a new burst of energy to bring clarity and focus where before there was uncertainty and unrest. Maybe there is a way to move beyond the doldrums or move beyond the angst. There is energy and desire but the focus is lost and uncertain.

hello in there

I'm hearing how I'm over critical or hyper-critical or some such. My mind and soul can get bogged down in all this what-if or we should kind of thinking and credibility goes out the window, so to speak. This line of thinking can cut across all sorts of activities and life experiences, I can tell you. Seeing light at the end of the tunnel. The creative motif used in Looking Glass Alice , a play we recently saw comes to mind. The play begins a seeming conventional stage set and suddenly the apparent mirror set as the stage backstop explodes and there is a small audience sitting in what normally is the back stage setting. Like Alice who discovers and sees and hears things through unsuspecting surreal characters, I need to find the positive, hopeful, regenerating side of this seemingly inbred "hyper-critical" mindset that dwells within me. I'm looking to break that mirror or barrier that follows me and surrounds what others hear as criticism or nay-saying. I'll have to sleep on that!